BEAUTIFUL

(Don't look at me) 

Everyday is so wonderful 

And suddenly, it's hard to breathe 

Now and then, I get insecure 

From all the pain, 

I'm so ashamed 

I am beautiful no matter what they say 

Words can't bring me down 

I am beautiful in every single way 

Yes, words can't bring me down, oh no 

So don't you bring me down today 

To all your friends you're delirious 

So consumed in all your doom 

Trying hard to fill the emptiness, 

The pieces gone, 

Left the puzzle undone, 

Ain't that the way it is? 

You are beautiful no matter what they say 

Words can't bring you down, no, no 

You are beautiful in every single way 

Yes words can't bring you down, oh, no 

So don't you bring me down today 

No matter what we do 

(no matter what we do) 

No matter what we say 

(no matter what we say) 

We're the song inside the tune 

(yeah, oh yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah) 

Full of beautiful mistakes 

And everywhere we go 

(and everywhere we go) 

The sun will always shine 

(sun will always, always shine) 

But tomorrow we might awake 

On the other side 

'Cause we are beautiful, 

No matter what they say 

Yes, words won't bring us down, oh no 

We are beautiful in every single way 

Yes, words can't bring us down, oh no 

So don't you bring me down today 

Don't you bring me down today 

Don't you bring me down... 

Mmm, today

stop in the name of love

Still remember this lyric :
Skali lagi maafkan lah
karna aku cinta kau dan dia
maafkanlah ku tak bisa
tinggalkan dirinya..

there is alot off people feel the same way..
loving two people in the same time,
cant choose which one he/she love the most.

For me, LOVE is monovalent..
yeah.., honestly i used to be in that situation.
but i realized i deserve someone better.
someone who can give his love for me, and just for me (or maybe our child).
I know its difficult to find someone who can love u, just u.

People who cheated usually said, that they didnt love their secret lover, they did it only a few reason "it feels different, so exciting, different taste, different services, bla bla bla"

OR they will say they didnt love they real partner and their heart only for u.
They promise will leave their real partner for u, OR the worst is they not promise u anything, not do anything to make ur relationship status get better, but also want to make u their property.

Its all bullshit!!!
They will never do anything for u.
Forget about LOVE, if he/she love u they will never ever do that bad thing to you.
They will not make u as their second choice.
Meet only if they have time or when their partner go somewhere.
Too affraid to pick up your call when they with their partner?
When u wanna break up they always say that u are their true love??
Cant live without u?
Never give a f*** with that!!!

And think about if you at their real partner situation,
Could u imagine how u feel when u know it?
U kiss someone who used to be kiss another guy/girl last night??
yakkkssss!! its so disgusting and hurting at the same time.
And how u feel when u know the one u love hide someone in their heart??
When he say he love u, its mean he love u only half or a quarter of his heart??

U DESERVE BETTER FRIENDS!!!!!!
so Stop in the Name of Love..

Never think that u will never find someone better than him/her.
coz u never know what u will find bfore u open ur eyes and heart for other..

Life is a game,
u wanna keep stay in the game that u know for sure u will never win, coz u r too affraid to leave ur comfort zone??
or you can out, and trying another game even u still dont know at the end u will win or lose??
Its all depend on you..

You want to have 100% chance to LOSE
or
You want to have 50 : 50 chances to WIN / LOSE.

my wedding plan

When : Soon, still discuss about this with both family

Where : Canada : Ice Hotel, Quebec
Indonesia : Tirtha Uluwatu, Bali

Bridal : Still not sure, JJ Bride? France & Taipei?

Photo : Outdoor for sure

Wedding ring : Frank & Co

Invitation : Nature concept, maybe beach theme (we both love beach)

Who will be invited : Not much, only my family, his family, our closest friend, we wanna our ceremony feel comfort and friendly, not too crowded.

Who will become the bridesmaid : hmm.., maybe his sister.

Honeymoon place : Bintan? Maldives? depend on our budget..

Where we will stay : Not in Medan, for sure. So our choice only in Bali or Jakarta.

" Hmmm.., apalagi yang harus disiapin yah? Waktu, tempat, undangan, bridal, cincin, kayanya udah semua dech"

Doh.., gak sabar pengen ketemu dia waktu dia pulang.
Mudah2an dia ga berubah pikiran yah..
gimana caranya nyambut dia, aku mesti jemput ke airport gak??

trus gimana kalo dia gak bahas2 masalah ini lagi??
masa aku yg mesti negorin sih "pertanyaan will u marry me masih berlaku gak" duhh.., basi banget gak sih??
kalo misalnya dia berubah pikiran gimana yah??
kalo di Canada dia ketemu cew yang lebih OK gimana yah??
hikshiksss.... bingung banget nich...

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