Pernah ngerasain di khianatin??
Di khianatin ama sahabat sendiri apalagi.
Gue baru tau hari Sabtu kemarin, ternyata rahasia2 gue selama ini yang awalnya gue pikir "best friend secret" tiba2 jadi konsumsi publik.
dan hal itu ngaruh ke hub gue ama cow gue.., secara cow gue jadi ngeraguin kejujuran gue gara2 itu..
dia blg klo si "X" tau, knp gue gak loe ksih tau??
gue kan pacar loe!!
emang sih, gue n x best friend gue itu skrg udah gak terlalu deket. Malah bisa di bilang kita gak pernah ngomong lagi sama sekali, tapi bukan berarti dia bisa bocorin semuanya kan??
Hmm.., pengen banget rasanya gue bales bocorin rahasia dia.., secara rahasia dia itu jg bs mempengaruhi hub dia ama cow nya.. bole di bilang rahasia dia lbh dasyat lagi..
tapi gue pikir2 kagak ada gunanya lah.., kalo gue bocorin sama aja gue kaya dia..
untrustworthy person..
makanya temen2, buat yang punya best friend cew..
harap jangan terlalu ngumbar rahasia..
loe orang gak akan pernah tau hati mereka gimana..
saat semuanya baek sih, kemungkinan kecil dibocorin..
tapi klo emang udah gak ngomongan lagi.., cew itu bisa dengan gampangnya ngomongin rahasia dan kejelekan kita ke orang2..
itu makanya knp org2 blg cew itu kan mulutnya dua..
Jadi.., usahain kalo bisa rahasia jgn dibagi2 dech..
biar simpen sendiri aja..
karena loe gak akan tau siapa kawan yg bisa jadi lawan..
ini pelajaran buat gue, dalam mempercayai seseorg.
moga2 berguna buat loe2 org juga..
Senin, 06 Oktober 2008
Sabtu, 04 Oktober 2008
Nikah?? Im not ready dech kayanya...
Nikah.., sepupu gue udah pada mau nikah. Even mereka masih lebih muda dari gue.
Let me counting, berapa adek sepupu yang udah ngelangkahin gue..
kurang ajar, masa ngelangkahin yang lebih tua (yg lebih parah gak pake uang pelangkah) hehehe..
Bonyok gue udah ribut nyuruhin gue buru2 nikah.
Gak tau gara2 bosen n cape ngurusin gue, ato karena mereka gak pengen gue dapet julukan perawan tua.. (ya ampyunn mamiii, eike baru 26 tahun please dech akh)
Salah satu sepupu gue, yang planning merid tahun 2010 bilang
pas dia merid, dia bakal ngasih gue bunganya.. heheh gak usah pake dilempar.
Langsung kasih ke gue aja, biar gue bisa cepet nyusul..
hmmm..., its make me thinking.., apa gue udah sedesperate itu di mata mereka?
yah.., gue sih thanks banget buat perhatian mereka.., tapi too extrem kayanya..
apalagi dia bilang, mending gue lempar tapi yang bole rebutan cuma loe, uncle "X", and brother "Y". Secara uncle "X" gue udah umur 40 an, dan brother "Y" gue udah 30 an..
Dalam hati gue, DAMN!! gue ngerasa gue kagak sedesperate itu dech..
Gue selalu mikir, orang2 yang bisa menikah di usia muda (without embel2 MBA ya) bener2 harus diacungi jempol.
Mereka yang bisa ngambil keputusan sepenting itu, mereka yang berani mengorbankan ego mereka, menghilangkan kata2 "aku" dan ganti jadi "kita", mereka yang harus kehilangan sebagian besar waktu2 untuk diri sendiri, temen2, dan segudang kegiatan favorite lainnya.
Honestly, im not ready for that..
pengen sih nikah, pengen bobo ada yang temenin, pengen ada tempat berbagi, pengen ada yang manjain, pengen ada lindungin, pengen punya keluarga, pengen punya anak..
TAPI.., belum siap buat kehilangan hidup gue sdri..
Let me counting, berapa adek sepupu yang udah ngelangkahin gue..
kurang ajar, masa ngelangkahin yang lebih tua (yg lebih parah gak pake uang pelangkah) hehehe..
Bonyok gue udah ribut nyuruhin gue buru2 nikah.
Gak tau gara2 bosen n cape ngurusin gue, ato karena mereka gak pengen gue dapet julukan perawan tua.. (ya ampyunn mamiii, eike baru 26 tahun please dech akh)
Salah satu sepupu gue, yang planning merid tahun 2010 bilang
pas dia merid, dia bakal ngasih gue bunganya.. heheh gak usah pake dilempar.
Langsung kasih ke gue aja, biar gue bisa cepet nyusul..
hmmm..., its make me thinking.., apa gue udah sedesperate itu di mata mereka?
yah.., gue sih thanks banget buat perhatian mereka.., tapi too extrem kayanya..
apalagi dia bilang, mending gue lempar tapi yang bole rebutan cuma loe, uncle "X", and brother "Y". Secara uncle "X" gue udah umur 40 an, dan brother "Y" gue udah 30 an..
Dalam hati gue, DAMN!! gue ngerasa gue kagak sedesperate itu dech..
Gue selalu mikir, orang2 yang bisa menikah di usia muda (without embel2 MBA ya) bener2 harus diacungi jempol.
Mereka yang bisa ngambil keputusan sepenting itu, mereka yang berani mengorbankan ego mereka, menghilangkan kata2 "aku" dan ganti jadi "kita", mereka yang harus kehilangan sebagian besar waktu2 untuk diri sendiri, temen2, dan segudang kegiatan favorite lainnya.
Honestly, im not ready for that..
pengen sih nikah, pengen bobo ada yang temenin, pengen ada tempat berbagi, pengen ada yang manjain, pengen ada lindungin, pengen punya keluarga, pengen punya anak..
TAPI.., belum siap buat kehilangan hidup gue sdri..
Kamis, 10 Juli 2008
BEAUTIFUL
(Don't look at me) Everyday is so wonderful And suddenly, it's hard to breathe Now and then, I get insecure From all the pain, I'm so ashamed I am beautiful no matter what they say Words can't bring me down I am beautiful in every single way Yes, words can't bring me down, oh no So don't you bring me down today To all your friends you're delirious So consumed in all your doom Trying hard to fill the emptiness, The pieces gone, Left the puzzle undone, Ain't that the way it is? You are beautiful no matter what they say Words can't bring you down, no, no You are beautiful in every single way Yes words can't bring you down, oh, no So don't you bring me down today No matter what we do (no matter what we do) No matter what we say (no matter what we say) We're the song inside the tune (yeah, oh yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah) Full of beautiful mistakes And everywhere we go (and everywhere we go) The sun will always shine (sun will always, always shine) But tomorrow we might awake On the other side 'Cause we are beautiful, No matter what they say Yes, words won't bring us down, oh no We are beautiful in every single way Yes, words can't bring us down, oh no So don't you bring me down today Don't you bring me down today Don't you bring me down... Mmm, today Jumat, 04 Juli 2008
stop in the name of love
Still remember this lyric :
Skali lagi maafkan lah
karna aku cinta kau dan dia
maafkanlah ku tak bisa
tinggalkan dirinya..
there is alot off people feel the same way..
loving two people in the same time,
cant choose which one he/she love the most.
For me, LOVE is monovalent..
yeah.., honestly i used to be in that situation.
but i realized i deserve someone better.
someone who can give his love for me, and just for me (or maybe our child).
I know its difficult to find someone who can love u, just u.
People who cheated usually said, that they didnt love their secret lover, they did it only a few reason "it feels different, so exciting, different taste, different services, bla bla bla"
OR they will say they didnt love they real partner and their heart only for u.
They promise will leave their real partner for u, OR the worst is they not promise u anything, not do anything to make ur relationship status get better, but also want to make u their property.
Its all bullshit!!!
They will never do anything for u.
Forget about LOVE, if he/she love u they will never ever do that bad thing to you.
They will not make u as their second choice.
Meet only if they have time or when their partner go somewhere.
Too affraid to pick up your call when they with their partner?
When u wanna break up they always say that u are their true love??
Cant live without u?
Never give a f*** with that!!!
And think about if you at their real partner situation,
Could u imagine how u feel when u know it?
U kiss someone who used to be kiss another guy/girl last night??
yakkkssss!! its so disgusting and hurting at the same time.
And how u feel when u know the one u love hide someone in their heart??
When he say he love u, its mean he love u only half or a quarter of his heart??
U DESERVE BETTER FRIENDS!!!!!!
so Stop in the Name of Love..
Never think that u will never find someone better than him/her.
coz u never know what u will find bfore u open ur eyes and heart for other..
Life is a game,
u wanna keep stay in the game that u know for sure u will never win, coz u r too affraid to leave ur comfort zone??
or you can out, and trying another game even u still dont know at the end u will win or lose??
Its all depend on you..
You want to have 100% chance to LOSE
or
You want to have 50 : 50 chances to WIN / LOSE.
Skali lagi maafkan lah
karna aku cinta kau dan dia
maafkanlah ku tak bisa
tinggalkan dirinya..
there is alot off people feel the same way..
loving two people in the same time,
cant choose which one he/she love the most.
For me, LOVE is monovalent..
yeah.., honestly i used to be in that situation.
but i realized i deserve someone better.
someone who can give his love for me, and just for me (or maybe our child).
I know its difficult to find someone who can love u, just u.
People who cheated usually said, that they didnt love their secret lover, they did it only a few reason "it feels different, so exciting, different taste, different services, bla bla bla"
OR they will say they didnt love they real partner and their heart only for u.
They promise will leave their real partner for u, OR the worst is they not promise u anything, not do anything to make ur relationship status get better, but also want to make u their property.
Its all bullshit!!!
They will never do anything for u.
Forget about LOVE, if he/she love u they will never ever do that bad thing to you.
They will not make u as their second choice.
Meet only if they have time or when their partner go somewhere.
Too affraid to pick up your call when they with their partner?
When u wanna break up they always say that u are their true love??
Cant live without u?
Never give a f*** with that!!!
And think about if you at their real partner situation,
Could u imagine how u feel when u know it?
U kiss someone who used to be kiss another guy/girl last night??
yakkkssss!! its so disgusting and hurting at the same time.
And how u feel when u know the one u love hide someone in their heart??
When he say he love u, its mean he love u only half or a quarter of his heart??
U DESERVE BETTER FRIENDS!!!!!!
so Stop in the Name of Love..
Never think that u will never find someone better than him/her.
coz u never know what u will find bfore u open ur eyes and heart for other..
Life is a game,
u wanna keep stay in the game that u know for sure u will never win, coz u r too affraid to leave ur comfort zone??
or you can out, and trying another game even u still dont know at the end u will win or lose??
Its all depend on you..
You want to have 100% chance to LOSE
or
You want to have 50 : 50 chances to WIN / LOSE.
Rabu, 02 Juli 2008
my wedding plan
When : Soon, still discuss about this with both family
Where : Canada : Ice Hotel, Quebec
Indonesia : Tirtha Uluwatu, Bali
Bridal : Still not sure, JJ Bride? France & Taipei?
Photo : Outdoor for sure
Wedding ring : Frank & Co
Invitation : Nature concept, maybe beach theme (we both love beach)
Who will be invited : Not much, only my family, his family, our closest friend, we wanna our ceremony feel comfort and friendly, not too crowded.
Who will become the bridesmaid : hmm.., maybe his sister.
Honeymoon place : Bintan? Maldives? depend on our budget..
Where we will stay : Not in Medan, for sure. So our choice only in Bali or Jakarta.
" Hmmm.., apalagi yang harus disiapin yah? Waktu, tempat, undangan, bridal, cincin, kayanya udah semua dech"
Doh.., gak sabar pengen ketemu dia waktu dia pulang.
Mudah2an dia ga berubah pikiran yah..
gimana caranya nyambut dia, aku mesti jemput ke airport gak??
trus gimana kalo dia gak bahas2 masalah ini lagi??
masa aku yg mesti negorin sih "pertanyaan will u marry me masih berlaku gak" duhh.., basi banget gak sih??
kalo misalnya dia berubah pikiran gimana yah??
kalo di Canada dia ketemu cew yang lebih OK gimana yah??
hikshiksss.... bingung banget nich...
"INDAH, PLEASE COME HERE AND DO PAGE 10 QUESTION NO 2"
Sayup2 aku denger suara Sir Killer memanggil ku, aku buka mataku.
"ALAMAKKKKK.., Sir Killer melotot dan membuyarkan mimpi indah ku. NASIB NASIBBB"!!!!!
Begitulah akhir mimpi indahku..
Where : Canada : Ice Hotel, Quebec
Indonesia : Tirtha Uluwatu, Bali
Bridal : Still not sure, JJ Bride? France & Taipei?
Photo : Outdoor for sure
Wedding ring : Frank & Co
Invitation : Nature concept, maybe beach theme (we both love beach)
Who will be invited : Not much, only my family, his family, our closest friend, we wanna our ceremony feel comfort and friendly, not too crowded.
Who will become the bridesmaid : hmm.., maybe his sister.
Honeymoon place : Bintan? Maldives? depend on our budget..
Where we will stay : Not in Medan, for sure. So our choice only in Bali or Jakarta.
" Hmmm.., apalagi yang harus disiapin yah? Waktu, tempat, undangan, bridal, cincin, kayanya udah semua dech"
Doh.., gak sabar pengen ketemu dia waktu dia pulang.
Mudah2an dia ga berubah pikiran yah..
gimana caranya nyambut dia, aku mesti jemput ke airport gak??
trus gimana kalo dia gak bahas2 masalah ini lagi??
masa aku yg mesti negorin sih "pertanyaan will u marry me masih berlaku gak" duhh.., basi banget gak sih??
kalo misalnya dia berubah pikiran gimana yah??
kalo di Canada dia ketemu cew yang lebih OK gimana yah??
hikshiksss.... bingung banget nich...
"INDAH, PLEASE COME HERE AND DO PAGE 10 QUESTION NO 2"
Sayup2 aku denger suara Sir Killer memanggil ku, aku buka mataku.
"ALAMAKKKKK.., Sir Killer melotot dan membuyarkan mimpi indah ku. NASIB NASIBBB"!!!!!
Begitulah akhir mimpi indahku..
Jumat, 27 Juni 2008
will u marry me???
Yah.., will you marry me??
itu yang dia bilang sebelum memasuki ruangan tunggu Airport.
Seketika itu juga nafasku seakan-akan berhenti, aku lupa bernafas, suply udara ke otak ku tertahan.
" Aku butuh pegangan, harus! atau aku akan jatuh karena kaki ku seakan-akan tidak bertulang" batin ku dalam hati.
Aku langsung bersandar pada besi pembatas, tak bisa berkata-kata.
Kupandangi wajah nya lama sekali, dia seakan-akan bisa membaca pikiranku.
" Just think about it, i need your answer when i come back here. And i hope i will be a good news for me, for you and for us." Dia mengecup pipi dan memelukku.
" I will miss you and dont worry i will come back here, only 3 weeks babe".
Aku tau dia mengatakan hal ini untuk menenangkan ku, menghindari air mata ini tumpah.
But who cares?? he wasnt my boyfriend anymore, he not more than friend for me.
Ok i cant lie, i feel a little bit sad, and worry.
Imagine u must take 20 hours flight from here to there. Anything could be happen, and i dont want something bad happen to him.
" Bye babe" dia melepaskan pelukannya perlahan-lahan dan menuju pintu masuk airport.
Aku menyaksikan dia perlahan-lahan menghilang dari pandanganku.
" Bye Sweetie, i will miss u", hanya ini yang bisa katakan dalam hati.
Saat ini yang bisa aku lakukan hanya berjalan tanpa menengok kebelakang dan langsung menuju mobil.
Dimobil aku langsung menyalakan rokok, Pernyataan " WIll you marry me" terlalu mengejutkan dan yang dapat membantu memperbaiki suasana hatiku hanya rokok.
Kuhisap panjang benda penyebab kanker paru itu lalu menghembuskannya secara perlahan.
Dalam hati bertanya-tanya, ada apa sebenarnya? Apa yang menyebabkan dia begitu cepat berubah pikiran? Hanya dalam selang waktu 3 hari dan semuanya berubah.
3 hari yang lalu dia masih bilang kalau hubungan kita lebih baik seperti ini, seperti dua sahabat baik.
Tapi sekarang, tanpa tedeng aling-aling dia mengatakan 4 kalimat nan manjur mujarab serta ajaib itu di depanku.
Gak ada makan malam romantis, gak ada meja dengan bunga mawar, champagne, dan juga cincin berlian 5 karat (ok kalau yang ini agak mengkhayal sedikit).
Doh.., mau terima gak yah??
itu yang dia bilang sebelum memasuki ruangan tunggu Airport.
Seketika itu juga nafasku seakan-akan berhenti, aku lupa bernafas, suply udara ke otak ku tertahan.
" Aku butuh pegangan, harus! atau aku akan jatuh karena kaki ku seakan-akan tidak bertulang" batin ku dalam hati.
Aku langsung bersandar pada besi pembatas, tak bisa berkata-kata.
Kupandangi wajah nya lama sekali, dia seakan-akan bisa membaca pikiranku.
" Just think about it, i need your answer when i come back here. And i hope i will be a good news for me, for you and for us." Dia mengecup pipi dan memelukku.
" I will miss you and dont worry i will come back here, only 3 weeks babe".
Aku tau dia mengatakan hal ini untuk menenangkan ku, menghindari air mata ini tumpah.
But who cares?? he wasnt my boyfriend anymore, he not more than friend for me.
Ok i cant lie, i feel a little bit sad, and worry.
Imagine u must take 20 hours flight from here to there. Anything could be happen, and i dont want something bad happen to him.
" Bye babe" dia melepaskan pelukannya perlahan-lahan dan menuju pintu masuk airport.
Aku menyaksikan dia perlahan-lahan menghilang dari pandanganku.
" Bye Sweetie, i will miss u", hanya ini yang bisa katakan dalam hati.
Saat ini yang bisa aku lakukan hanya berjalan tanpa menengok kebelakang dan langsung menuju mobil.
Dimobil aku langsung menyalakan rokok, Pernyataan " WIll you marry me" terlalu mengejutkan dan yang dapat membantu memperbaiki suasana hatiku hanya rokok.
Kuhisap panjang benda penyebab kanker paru itu lalu menghembuskannya secara perlahan.
Dalam hati bertanya-tanya, ada apa sebenarnya? Apa yang menyebabkan dia begitu cepat berubah pikiran? Hanya dalam selang waktu 3 hari dan semuanya berubah.
3 hari yang lalu dia masih bilang kalau hubungan kita lebih baik seperti ini, seperti dua sahabat baik.
Tapi sekarang, tanpa tedeng aling-aling dia mengatakan 4 kalimat nan manjur mujarab serta ajaib itu di depanku.
Gak ada makan malam romantis, gak ada meja dengan bunga mawar, champagne, dan juga cincin berlian 5 karat (ok kalau yang ini agak mengkhayal sedikit).
Doh.., mau terima gak yah??
Kamis, 12 Juni 2008
Its ain't easy to say good bye
Its really2 difficult to say good bye..
and it more difficult if u still love him/her.
Thats exactly what i feel now..
one part of my heart still can't believe it..
I lose him.., he wasn't my boyfriend anymore.
I can't feel his touch, his kiss..
Everytime i passed the place or street, its always remind me of him..
everytime i saw a couple, holding hand each other i remember him..
so sad hah??
My heart bleeding, i can't stop crying
I feel incomplete..
But something happen to me..
i heard someone whispered to my ears, that this is the best way for us ( i can't even see who said that)!!
that thing happen just like that...
now i can say good bye..
even im still sad, mad, dissapointed, but now i can accept it..
that we are not belong together..
its really2 ain't easy to say goodbye, but sometime u should know and realize when u need to say good bye..
its hurt at the beginning.., but its better than u are too affraid to say that magical word..
yeah... "GOOD BYE"!!
When u are not too affraid to say I LOVE U, u should ready to say GOOD BYE..
Coz nothing stay forever..
and it more difficult if u still love him/her.
Thats exactly what i feel now..
one part of my heart still can't believe it..
I lose him.., he wasn't my boyfriend anymore.
I can't feel his touch, his kiss..
Everytime i passed the place or street, its always remind me of him..
everytime i saw a couple, holding hand each other i remember him..
so sad hah??
My heart bleeding, i can't stop crying
I feel incomplete..
But something happen to me..
i heard someone whispered to my ears, that this is the best way for us ( i can't even see who said that)!!
that thing happen just like that...
now i can say good bye..
even im still sad, mad, dissapointed, but now i can accept it..
that we are not belong together..
its really2 ain't easy to say goodbye, but sometime u should know and realize when u need to say good bye..
its hurt at the beginning.., but its better than u are too affraid to say that magical word..
yeah... "GOOD BYE"!!
When u are not too affraid to say I LOVE U, u should ready to say GOOD BYE..
Coz nothing stay forever..
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