Bimbang

Berlari dan terus berlari, tapi yang terasa hanya rasa sakit.
Terasa berputar-putar ditempat yang sama.
Berlari tapi tidak mencapai apapun.
Dada terasa sesak, tidak tau harus bagaimana.
Ingin teriak, tapi teriakan ini tidak dapat keluar dari tempatnya.

Badanku lelah, otakku penat, hatiku hampa..
Lelahnya diriku mencoba bertahan,
penatnya diriku karena mencoba bersabar,
dan hampanya hatiku karena mencoba untuk tegar.

Ingin berhenti berlari, berhenti berjuang.
Tapi dirimu dan semua tentang kamu
bagaikan candu, telah meresap dalam semua urat nadi, jantung,dan otak ku.
Aku tak bisa hidup tanpa mu.

Bimbang,
haruskan aku terus berlari walau lelah, penat, dan sakit menerjangku
atau aku harus menyerah dan berhenti berlari
walau aku harus hidup dalam kegelapan, kehampaan..

Bimbang,
terus tersakiti atau hidup bagai jiwa tanpa raga..

it takes two to tanggo

Some guy told me that if i want my relationship work out, i must understand my boyfriend.
He said, guy expect their girlfriend not try to change them, same like they expect their girlfriend to stay the same.
But, based on my experience people changes.
Why guys expect girl to understand them??
who will understand us as a girl?
Guys can do this, girls can't.
Its normal if guys cheated, but for girls its a sin!!
If guys dont wanna compromised, all they think only their world, their life, their habits, their time, and all about them i think they should just live in the jungle and fuck the monkey!!
Coz monkey cant complain, cant bother you, and cant bitching at you.

Or, you can fuck some random girl who will never complain about you coz she do the same thing with you.

The right thing to do if u want ur relationship work out is, two people must work together, help each other, understand each other, and except the differences and respect each other.

It takes two to tanggo, and
Good girl will get a good guy who wanna dance with her, step by step, fell down and stand up together, laugh and cry together, appreciated every moment that they spent together.

4 weeks

It's been 4 weeks since you said goodbye.
4 fuckin long weeks that i have to live my life without you.
4 weeks ago I lose your love, your touch, you kiss, and i lose you!
4 weeks feels like 4 years for me.
Living my life in misery, in pain and regret.
4 weeks is a short time to forget you,
someone who stand beside me for 3 years!
Baby, i still love you..
when i can live normal without you?
5 weeks, 2 months or maybe years later?

Sahabat

Sahabat, sudah lebih setahun sejak kepergianmu,
tapi kenanganmu tetap tinggal di hatiku.
Walaupun kita tidak pernah bertemu,
tapi engkau tetap sahabatku.

Kita biasa berbagi tangis dan tawa,
saling mendukung dan bercanda.
Mengapa engkau harus pergi begitu muda
disaat kamu dan aku berjuang menemukan asa.

Sahabat, kini tak ada lagi dirimu.
Kami semua merindukanmu.
Tenanglah kau disana.
Dirimu tak kan kami lupa

Special dedicated to: Darra Ayu.
Rest in Peace my friend

take a baby step to forget you

My sight is blur, coz my eyes full of tears
Now i can smile, later i will cry
I can strong and tough in front of people,
but i always weak and suffering by myself.
Missing u, is the most unbearable feelin.
Missing ur smile, ur touch, ur kiss.
Learning to accept those thing is not mine anymore.
My heart still bleeding inside..
Feel like im taking a baby step to forget you.
Trying to put my head up, to face the world
To be a better person in the future

Damn it!!

Damn it!! I never thought this will make me so damn sad!!
Damn it!! I never realized u mean so much for me.
Damn it!! Why we should ended like this
Damn it!! Wish im strong enough to survive

Damn it, Damn it, Damn it!!
I realized i love you so much and i dont wanna lose you!

Separuh jiwa ku pergi

Ya.. seperti lagu si Anang waktu di tinggal KD,
separuh jiwa ku pergi
Ini yang aku rasain sekarang..
Rasanya ada yang hilang dalam hidup ku..
Ada ruangan kosong di hatiku.
Bolong, kosong, dan melompong..
gak ada yang bisa gantiin ato nempatin.

Rasanya separuh jiwa ku melayang pergi ntah kemana.
Pengen mati ajarasanya
kadang pikir gak sanggup, kadang mikir harus kuat..

Kenapa harus ada cinta??
kenapa harus ada cinta kalo akhirnya kaya gini?
Bener2 ngerasa separuh jiwa, raga, hidup, hati aku pergi melayang jauh..
Mati segan hidup tak mau.

God please give me strengh and serenity to pass all this problem
coz without ur help, im not even sure i will survive